I'm not one for thinking things through before doing them, I'm an Aquarius, we're known for being very impulsive. I share my birthday with Robbie Williams and we all know how daft he can be.
Just over a year ago I begun an internet based project, in the hope of raising awareness. It's fast become a labour of love. What I hadn't realised was that by doing so, I'd lose the right to be me. Don't get me wrong, I'm immensely proud to run a project that's bringing support and friendship to so many that have felt isolated for so long, but it's come at a hidden cost.
Over recent months I've come to resent not being able to be myself online, because of the project I'm seen as the strong one, the one keeping the herd together. People can't seem to recognise that sometimes I might need support as well.
I've made a couple of really good friends through the project, for which I'll always be grateful. but the project has also cost me friendships. My Facebook account is always being tracked down by fans of the project, despite the lengths I go to with my privacy settings.
It's not that I'm particularly anti social, although I don't deny being a loner, it's simply that most of the time I can't even manage to follow a conversation, yet alone hold one, whether it be written or spoken.
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