However there are times when I am desperately ill, I pray death comes soon. During severe flare ups, I have even been known to beg my partner to let me die.
That may shock you, that death can seem preferable to living. The sad reality of living life with FM and ME, is that sometimes death, really would be a welcome relief.
Imagine not being able to get out of bed for weeks, wanting to amputate both legs because the pain is so unbearable, constantly covered in sweat and yet shaking uncontrollably. Being so weak you cannot even take on fluids. Constant migraines, IBS attacks, unable to make yourself understood, never able to make plans, and that's just an average day.
There are sixty three (reported) symptoms for Fibromyalgia, and around sixty three Symptoms for ME, perhaps now you can see why death sometimes feels the better option?
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